London, Mar 30: After almost a week of Jade Goody's unfortunate demise, her devastated mom has for the first time spoken of her heartbreak over her only daughter's death.

Grief-stricken Jackiey Budden, 50, opened her heart to describe her agony and pain after Jade lost her battle with cancer.

She revealed that, in the last one week, she has been trying very hard to hold the family together because widower Jack Tweed, 21, is too heartbroken to come to terms with Jade's death.

Budden said that she wouldn't be speaking at her daughter's funeral on April 4 because she was afraid that it would be too emotional for her.

Although she has completed all the arrangements for the service, she admitted that the whole task was physically and mentally draining for her.

"I am being a husband and a mother at the moment because Jack is too weak," the Daily Star quoted Jackiey as saying.

She also revealed that she had had to put up a brave front for her grandsons, Bobby, five, and Freddy, four, while making the final arrangements for the funeral.

Drained Jackiey added: "I have been so strong through all this, but I would just break down if I had to read. All the funeral plans are finished. We're going to put four big screens up outside the church and there'll be a long procession.

All the readers have been chosen but I can tell you this, I will not be one of them." (ANI)