London, February 24 : Cancer-stricken Jade Goody has experienced hair loss before, when as a teenager she had smoked crack to get close to her drug-addict mum Jackiey.

The 27-year-old, who lost all her hair after undergoing chemotherapy in her battle with cervical cancer, revealed she had turned to drugs when she was 18 in a desperate plight to get noticed.

"I can't believe I'm admitting this but a voice in my head said to me, `I might as well do a bit of crack myself. I might as well go the same way as Mum. At least then we'd be together'," the Sun quoted her as saying in her autobiography, Jade - Catch A Falling Star.

"I walked into the lounge, where she was smoking crack. I took some of it, put it in a Rizla paper to make a joint and I smoked it.

"All the time I had tears streaming down my face. I was willing her to stop me and to promise me she'd never do it again. But she didn't.

"I'd foolishly thought that if she could see what it looked like - and if she thought that her own daughter was about to go to the same dark place she was in - she'd put a stop to it.

"I couldn't even smoke it all, it made me feel too ill. I ran to the toilet, stuck my fingers down my throat and made myself sick. I was shaking and crying. Then I ran to my room and shut the door.

"I felt like utter s**t. I bashed my head repeatedly against the wall as hard as I could, I pulled my hair out of my head until my scalp was red raw and I pinched my skin until it went purple," she added. (ANI)