London, September 26 : A new book written by late singer Michael Jackson's adviser has revealed that the King of Pop feared old-age and had lost his desire to live almost a decade before his death.

Rabbi Shmuley Boteach has disclosed in his new book `The Michael Jackson Tapes', which is based on 30 hours of taped interviews, that the `Thriller' singer wanted to remain hidden.

The Daily Express reports, Jackson had said: "I don''t want to be seen now. Because I am like a lizard. It is horrible.

"I would like some way to disappear where people don''t see me anymore at some point. I don''t want to grow old. I never want to look in the mirror and see that."

Boteach, who met the pop legend in 1999 through Israeli British entertainer Uri Geller, after which he became his confidant, told NBC television: "He lost the will to live. I think he was just going through the motions of life toward the end."

The holy man further added that the tapes were recorded to provide the public a correct image of Jackson.

However, the singer decided to cancel the publication of the book, which was originally planned for release in 2003.

Meanwhile, the tome also reveals that Jackson was sexually interested in women but was extremely shy.

It even has Jackson confessing of sexually charged phone conversations with Madonna. (ANI)